Wake up. Make coffee. Stare out the window.
Quarter to five. No need for the alarm. Wake up. Make Coffee. Stare out the widow. Again.
Kids asleep. Wife's asleep.
Radio on. Local news and weather from thousands of miles away. Farm reports. Livestock auctions. Radio used to sound like vast empty distances. Now it sounds like wires. Up close. Too up close. Radio off.
Wake up. Make coffee. Stare out the window. Not waiting. Not thinking. Staring. Again. Still.